Nine Days

... That's how long it has been since I last heard his voice. It's starting to hit me... We haven't gone a single day without talking since we met. There isn't anyway for him to make a phone call on the ship, and I don't know how much longer before I will breakdown. He won't be home for alomst three more weeks, and it's getting to me. I get emails form him sometimes, but even being here in Texas isn't helping. I still have nothing that is taking my mind off of him. What do I do?? What's the longest you have ever gone without speaking? I need something...

Inspiration

Hello all my lovely followers! Yes I am still in Texas but I just couldn't resist you guys! So herre I am blogging on my vacation! I am having a great time with family but I can't wait t be back home. I was very inspired when I read this poem on another blog, It's called "Goodbyes" and I think it speaks to all kinds of goodbyes. It really got me because I can even apply it to just being in a military relationship and having to say goodbye so often. Not that it ever gets easier to say the words, but each time you do, you learn. You learn how to deal, and you learn that you have to be independant and not count on him being there. I hope it's an inspiration to many of you as well, and that it speaks to you in it's own way as it has to me.



"Goodbyes"


After a while you learn

the subtle difference between

holding a hand and chaining a soul

and you learn

that love doesn't mean leaning

and company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn

that kisses aren't contracts

and presents aren't promises

and you begin to accept your defeats

with your head up and your eyes ahead

with the grace of woman, not the grief of a child

and you learn

to build all your roads on today

because tomorrow's ground is

too uncertain for plans

and futures have a way of falling down

in mid-flight.

After a while you learn

that even sunshine burns

if you get too much

so you plant your own garden

and decorate your own soul

instead of waiting for someone

to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure

you really are strong

you really do have worth

and you learn

and you learn

with every goodbye, you learn.

My Dress

This is the dress I will be wearing hopefully in November when we have our ceremony for the family, it's Ivory though and has a loooong chocolate brown ribbon that goes all the way down the train, I'm hoping to replace it with a red one though, since he will be in his dress blues I think it will look better.

Home

OMGosh!! I am so ecstatic I am going home! Lolo's aunt who lives about three hours from me is making a trip down to Texas on Saturday and will be staying til June 2nd. She's going by herself so I offered to go with her to help drive it's a 26 hour drive and I'm not looking forward to that part but I get to see my family and friends so it's all worth it! By the time I get back hubby should hopefully be home. It will be so nice to be around people and not have to think about him all the time. I will be able to keep myself busy and the time will fly by! So if you guys don't hear from me much in the next couple weeks that's why, it's not that i don't love you anymore I promise! lol EEEEK oh and this is an awesome song, if you've never heard it listen to it it's one of my favorites.

Simple

I just came across ANOTHER contest I had to enter. It's called Military Wedding Week and it's held by Skinnie Piggie. You can click the button below to enter yourself!

Now I don't think I have said much about my wedding to you lovely ladies, and my wedding was definitely nothing huge, it was actually about as small as they come. My hubby and I met on July 30, 2009. He left four days after that to return to Virginia where he is stationed. We talked every day on the phone and I flew twice to go see him. The second time I flew in was for Thanksgiving. I stayed for a week and the last day I was there we went to the Aquarium. We were walking out on the nature trail and all of a sudden he got down on one knee and asked me to marry him. 

                              This is where we were standing...

                         
                          We made out in one of the huts afterward...

So of course I said yes, I was the happiest girl in the world. We continued our little adventure and we ended up losing track of time and stayed til they closed at 5pm. My flight left at 6. There was no way I was going to make it but we tried our hardest. We got to the airport at 5:55pm. I was upset there were no other flights leaving that night. It was Sunday and I was supposed to be at work the next day. I went outside and I sat down on the stairs and I remember crying thinking I would lose my job. He came and sat next to me and said he knew how he could cheer me up. He said he wanted to get married the NEXT DAY! I of course being a spontaneous person myself went for it right away, I thought it was so romantic. 

The next day we woke up SUPER early and got dressed and went straight to the court house. Now since I wasn't planning any of this I didn't get to wear anything special, but it was the most amazing day of my life. I wouldn't want it any other way. It was just the two of us, staring each other's eyes knowing we wanted to spend the rest of our lives together.  We were married exactly four months from the day we met on November 30, 2009. I know it wasn't anything big like a lot of the entries I've seen we didn't have hundreds of people, or big fancy flowers, or even proper clothing, but none of that mattered to me. We plan on having a reception of some sort eventually for the family, but nothing major the simple things are what I live for.

This was the first picture we took after we were married. I was so nervous because absolutely no one knew except for us. So I had the job of going back home to Texas and telling EVERYONE.

                   Here are a few more photos from my special day ...

Where's my Sunshine?

Today was a horrible day. I was so excited this morning I had planned to go to this Military spouse appreciation event called "An Evening Under the Stars" it's a night FULL of pampering for spouses free massages, manicures, ans all kinds of stuff. I've said before I don't have a car and had planned on going with a friend. She canceled. At the last minute. 

That didn't bother too much I figured I'd just stay home and pray to hear from my husband because I hadn't heard from him yet. So I sat around pretty much all day and waited. The story of our lives huh? Well I got up to go to the restroom and get a drink, and what do you know, I come back and he had been online trying to IM me on FB and I MISSED IT!!! I am so frustrated right now. It's also raining like mad crazy here which is scary I hate thunder when I'm alone. I haven't been here alone when we had a bad thunderstorm, usually he's here to kiss my eyelids as I fall asleep and tell me not to be scared because he's there to protect me. 

As I was writing all this I ended up getting an email from him. I'm still frustrated at how the day turned out but at least his words make me feel safe again. Here's what he wrote:

"awesome I am so excited that my e-mail works... I had to run round trying to find and dog someone until they set me up with e-mail and comp. access whew! I m gonna find the phones tomorrow to see if i can get a hold of you :)... I'm sorry my messages have been so short just got all set up and then everyone heard I have access and all the married guys came running and I know how they feel.. So we each took turns emailing our wives :), and I'm so proud your the first one to reply because your the best ;) Any who just to let you know what goes down here, its nowhere near as bad as what people make it out to be as far as accommodations go: small sleeping space with a fuck ton of noise form landing jets but I'm starting to get used to it already, galley food is lacking but they make up for it in quantity. I finished my first workout of many on this ship, gyms a lil cramped but ill make it work. to be honest my love I was missing you something fierce something was very off yesterday, I went to my rack immediately after work and thought about you (by the way I discovered your daddy cakes playlist Thanks baby and for the photo as well it really helps) and drifted off to sleep at like 19...7pm. I'm slowly shaken the worst of the sadness off. I am so happy to have really enjoyed my last moments with you taking the time to dwell on the taste and warmth of your skin; the color and shape of your eyes and all the ways the hue of the setting sun drenched them in light and colored them beautiful! and the way you hug me; its as if your trying to give me a gift of love and life... its wonderful its full and complete and leaves me wanting for nothing. I cant wait to be back to you  and the love we share."

He's so good at knowing what to say to make everything better. At least I can sleep peacefully tonight knowing that he's safe for another day.

Who is Mrs. Gambizzle?

Well I have to say I'm extremely excited I'm just about to hit the big 1-0-0! I am one follower away right now how awesome is that? I have been blogging still less than two months and I never thought I would have that many AWESOME people interested in what I have to say. I can now even say I consider many of them friends, and they have become a part of my support system which is important as many of you know when you are a military spouse. So I can't say this enough, but thanks again to all you ladies who continually help to pick me up when I'm down. 

I thought it would be fun to actually tell you girls a little about me which tends to be one of the things I find a little difficult. I know you have all read what is in my profile but I just thought I'd share a little more for those of you who read often. I get MANY people asking me if "Gambizzle" is my actual last name, and I have to say it isn't, but I try to follow OPSEC the best I can. However it is close to my last name, it's just something the hubby and I came up with one day being silly, and it kinda stuck around. I use it everywhere now.

So that's me of course in the pictures above, I am 22 years old and I spent my entire life in Texas. This is the first time I have lived in an other state, and I haven't been here long, so I'm still not sure how I feel about it. I've always been a small town girl, and while the city I live in may not be the biggest it's pretty darn big to me. The hubby and I got married 5 months ago, exactly 4 months from the day we met. We lived in the same town for years and never knew it. Our relationship moved VERY fast, and we got a lot of grunts about that but it didn't make a difference to us. We knew, and still know to this day that we were so in love we couldn't wait. We are literally best friends. We know things about each other that no one else in the world knows.  He is everything to me, more than words can describe, i don't really know how else to put it, he's a lot better with words than I am. The things he says to me everyday make me fall in love with him all over again. He never fails to let me know how much he loves me.

That's me holding a very fat, and very spoiled skunk. Daisy, she was super sweet. I've always been a very big animal person, I've always been passionate about working with them. ESPECIALLY "Pit Bulls" they are my absolute favorite of all the dog breeds. I have owned four in my lifetime, and all have been amazing. I worked at a dog rescue right out of high school where they were the major concern, and we helped so many get good homes. I guess I'm what they call a rescuer, it's just always been my nature to wanna help animals, people, whoever needs it. 

I like to consider myself a pretty happy person, I'm also a morning person, most of the time. I love to wake up early with Lolo (that's my hubby) and make him breakfast, lunch, and spend some time with him before he leaves. It's important to me to spend as much time with him as I can. Nothing makes me a happier person than being with him. He's my rock. :)

I'm also a very artistic person. I love all kinds of art I enjoy making jewelry, painting, photography, writing, there are so many ways to express yourself! So before I bore you guys to death hehe I will move on I found this on several others blogs, and I thought it was cute to get to know a few other details that a lot of people wouldn't normally ask. 

A. AREA CODE: I am & always will be a Texas girl so, 830.

B. BED SIZE: Queen, I love to cuddle don't need anymore space.

C. CHORE YOU HATE: I love doing things around the house, but I don't care to fold clothes.

D. DOG'S NAME: Flower & Tulip

E. ESSENTIAL "START THE DAY!" ITEM: A good song, I even have a happy song "I'm Yours"

F. FAVORITE COLOR: Purple or Red

G. GOLD OR SILVER: Either one is fine, I own both.

H. HEIGHT: 5'2". Yup. I'm a shorty.

I. INSTRUMENTS YOU PLAY: None. I would love to learn guitar though.

J. JOB: Housewifey

K. KIDS: None, and happy to say it, although I would love to have them.

L. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS: One bedroom apartment with the hubby

 
N. NICKNAME: Tons from the hubby but we won't go there. Other that that don't really have any.

M. MOM'S NAME: Deborah

O. OVERNIGHT HOSPITAL STAY: No thank you.

P. PET PEEVE: Liars? Loud Neighbors? Are those pet peeves?

Q. QUOTE FROM A MOVIE:I don't really watch movies so that's a hard one.

 
R. RIGHTY OR LEFTY?: Righty

S. SIBLINGS: 6 brothers, 4 sisters

T. TIME YOU WAKE UP: whenever hubby does usually, he's constantly being switched from days to nights.

U. UNDERWEAR: I love boy shorts, and anything frilly and girly.

V. VEGGIE YOU DISLIKE: Can't stand spinach and refuse to eat onions.

W. WAYS/REASONS YOU ARE LATE: Usually hubby's fault. hehe

X. XRAYS YOU'VE HAD: My knee, when I was 12 I had a nail stab into it.

Y. YUMMY FOOD YOU MAKE: Enchiladas, and Asian food we love to cook together.

Z. ZOO ANIMALS YOU LIKE: Pandas, which also happen to be my favorite animals ever since I was little.

What's worse than a One-Upper?

This to me is worse than what I have learned is called a "one-upper", I woke up this morning to more negativity a.k.a fellow military wives. I do not understand... The first thing I read was this which is part of a status update from a Navy wife, who is apparently upset at all the other wives who are now missing their husbands...

"Wont be on facebook much, its the only way I can avoid status updates from those with the E. I don't need to see people whining and bitching about their guys being gone. I have other things NOT military affiliated to worry about."

Needless to say she has now been removed from my friend list, not that that means anything to her, but I refuse to have that kind of negativity in my life. I love my husband he is my best friend, he's my world. When he is gone, life just isn't the same. I think I am doing pretty damn well with this all, I'm just so angry that people would say things like that. It makes me even more proud to be a military wife. Just to be able to say that I will always be there for any of my fellow military wives who need an ear, a shoulder, anything at all. I will never try to one-up you I will simply listen and do my best to support you! I want people around who will support me when I need it, and I will absolutely be there to do the same. All I have to say is saying that I miss my husband is not complaining, or being negative in my eyes, it's just expressing my feelings the same way I do about everything else. This is the last post I will write on this subject I promise, I was just in disbelief when the negativity continued today, and from so many people. I'm on to much happier things today!

Sweeeeet! An Award!

I know, I know, I'm posting like crazy today, but it's keeping my mind off things sorta... Well it's making them better anyway. I was so excited to learn that I won another award! YAY me! I just won the Sweet Blog award from Flip Flops & Combat Boots, which is awesome because she is one of my favs! So the rules of this award are simple all you have to do is pass it on to 10 more super sweet blogs, and i know plenty of those! So here's the award for all of you I'm passing it to.

Here is a list of the super, amazing, and sweet blogs I'm going to pass it on to:

•  Star Spangled Stockings
• The Sand is different here
• Rank and File Wifey
• Married to a Sailor: The Journey of a Navy Wife
• Hope Floats
• Pulling up the Weeds
• A Day in the Life of a Navy Wife
• Far From the Safe Harbor
• Trying My Best to be a Proverbs 31 Woman
  
  

See You Later Baby

Today turned out to be not as bad as I thought it would be. Turns out hubby got to come back home for a couple hours and caught a ride with the neighbor to the ship, so he could leave his car here. So somehow getting to see him once more made it a little better. We spent our time holding each other and watching Avatar, which I won from Amber over at Goodnight Moon. I was very excited about that because I had never seen it, but it was AWESOME! So thanks again Amber! We laughed and talked while we watched it. We talked about how awesome it would be if we could build a huge tree house in one of the humongo trees in their forest. It wouls be like a mansion. I loved all the colors, and crazy flowers, and trees they had. It was a great movie, so glad we were able to see it together before he left. I also being the the pathological picture taker I am, took more pictures before he left. I want to thank you all again for all of your support today and every day. You guys are amazing and I appreciate all of your comments and support. It really means a lot to me, especially on days like this. 

That's Not Cool

First I just wanna say this is not directed at any of my followers! You guys are amazing!

Second, I'm pretty sure this is my first ever so called "rant" but this girl just REALLY pissed me off! First of all I'm kinda new to this whole Navy life stuff. Hell I have only known my husband for 10 months total. So yeah of course I am going to miss him like crazy when he leaves, we've had a long distance relationship pretty much the whole time we've been together. I just moved in with him three months ago. He's hardly been home since. I know it could always be worse, and I'm sure it will be at some point. I'm lucky that I get to see him when  I do, and that we have such a great relationship. I know that these times we are apart only make our love stronger, but...

What is wrong with missing my husband when he's gone???

I am so tired of all the negative remarks and comments I have received from other wives. We are supposed to be here to support each other, to help each other through the hard times, and to provide a shoulder or an ear when we need some support! We all go through the same issues when dealing with this military lifestyle. They all have under ways, workups, deployments. That's just how it is. Regardless of how long my husband is gone, I still miss him the same. Why is it that just because he's not gone as long as someone else's husband this time, I have to get shit for it?!?! Makes no sense, all I know is I will be more careful when choosing who I am friends with in the military from now on, because I am not going to have someone who I hardly know, who's SUPPOSED to be a "friend" treat me badly. That's not what I need nor what ANY military spouse needs in a time like this. This has not been a good start to what was inevitably going to be a bad day anyway. I'm over it though, sorry but I had to let it out! Going to take a nap now hopefully things will be better when I wake up.

and off he goes...

This weekend was absolutely amazing and romantic I spent the last three days cradled in my husband's arms dreading one thing... Monday morning, which has come. It seems like he just got home, which he kinda did. He's only been home three weeks and already he's off again. It's different this time though, he's going out on the ship this time. It's a very scary thought to me. No hearing his voice before I go to sleep. No good morning text messages. Just emails when he gets time... this is not going to be fun! I promised I was going to be strong though and be strong I shall!! I just keep telling myself not to think about what he's doing out there, not to think about him being on that big scary ship. Just imagine he's still on land and I'll be okay, I think... Well I managed to get some great pictures of us before he left so that is helping out just being able to see his smiling face.

and the winner is....

Okay girls I'm so sorry wasn't able to post yesterday, my hubby just left for his first time actually on the ship so you all know how that goes... ANYWAY! The winner of my Gambizzle Jewels giveaway is Star Spangled Stockings!!!

She has an adorable blog, and the cutest little love story she entered for my contest! Go check her out! & here's a link directly to the story she submitted for my giveaway...

The Blue Burka Story

So send me an e-mail with your address so I can send out your prize!

The Final Product! YAY!

Okay all my lovely blog friends! I am so excited to present to you the finished project! I worked on this sucker all day! lol Once again thank you all SOOOO much for contributing your photos! I had so much fun making this for you guys, i can't wait to do another one! So enough of my rambling, here you go, hope you enjoy it & share it with everyone!

Picture Request

Okay so I've seen these cute little videos everywhere where of military couples, I really would like to make one with all of you in it! SO I was hoping I could get some of you to send me pictures of you and your husbands, boyfriends, fiancees, kids or whoever else I'm mostly looking for military themed photos. You know in uniform, or as they're leaving stuff like that... You can send photos to my e-mail at MrsGambizzle@yahoo.com 

I really hope you guys will participate I think it will be so much fun to combine all of my readers photos into one amazing video to show our love and support for our men! Tomorrow is military spouse appreciation day so I just thought this would be a fun way to celebrate all of our hard work! Thanks for reading, I'm looking forward to seeing your photos in my in box!!! Going to try to have this finished sometime tomorrow!

Reasons to Love a Military Man

So I came across this idea somewhere a while ago and I don't remember where but I thought it was so cute! most were just silly reasons, but i still thought it was cute! So I hope some of you will participate with me! Just leave a comment with you ten reasons or post it to your blog. 

He looks sexy in his uniform

He's even SEXIER out of it

He's got the best haircut handsdown

Endurance... 'nuff said!

He can do his own laundry

He never complains about dinner

He almost never gets lost

He came trained to obey orders

Most of all he's my HERO!!

So can you come up with ten more reasons? 

Add your blog in the link below so more of our bloggy friends can add theirs too!

New Jewels

Hubby has gone off to work so I decided to work on some new jewels! Haven't done any in a while, and I've gotten in new stuff since then so I'm pretty excited. I think these turned out pretty well! They are all for sale so leave a comment if you are interested or you can always e-mail me!

 

 

Yay for Giveaways!

I ABSOLUTELY adore all of my bloggy followers! I'm almost to a hundred readers and I'm so excited, so since there are so many new people just within the last few days I'm going to re-post my giveaway and extend it til Sunday May 9th. So once again the rules are as follows:

• You must submit a post on YOUR blog about the most romantic evening, event, or moment spent with your significant other. It must be complete with a link to my blog, and you need to leave a comment here with a link to the post. 

• Second you have to bring at least one new follower to my blog, and have them leave a comment in this post saying they found me on your site! 

EASY PEASY

 Pretty simple eh? and it's all for this pretty little necklace handmade by moi! It's sterling silver and Garnet and selling for $50.oo on my site. So get posting! Have Fun!

Nerdy F-U-N !

It's been several days since I posted about all the fun hubby and I are having, but let me tell you there has been tons of absolute nerdy fun going on. I love that he is my best friend and we can be nerds together. Normally i don't like to post with lots of pics but I don't know how else to describe all that was this weekend without them.

We spent an entire day lounging around being lazy, eating, and watching "Ponyo" & "Rescue Me" and I got to see this amazing smile all weekend. It's one of my favorite things about him.

We went out with a group of friends to a house party which is something we haven't ever done before so that was exciting.

There was lots of  beer and this monstrous sandwich involved. Hubby likes to cook for me sometimes and he decided to make the biggest breakfast sandwich he could, I then proceeded and failed to eat it. We also learned to play some drunken game called Cornhole, found a guy at the party who can do our tattoos, and ended the night laughing and dancing away at some night club down the street from us!

We spent a day at the botanical Gardens here which was amazing. It was very hot which was wonderful considering the weather we've been having. I felt like a kid in a candy store here with all the gorgeous flowers, and pictures I took, oh and there were lots! 167 to be exact, hubby kept asking for a break lol

 

We played with the spiders while we were there, well not literally but we spend a ridiculous amount of time watching them crawling all over the statues. They were interesting, bouncing up and down, and hanging upside down. There were tons of them crawling around. 

You'd be surprised at the places we can have fun! We did some much needed grocery shopping, and made out like bandits! We hit the commissary on a day they were having a sale on literally everything on our list! We then went straight home and decided to play chef which resulted in our favorite asian food, Sesame chicken which was OMG delicious!!

So we have a few more fun filled days to enjoy before Mr. Gambizzle is off again to some place we shall not discuss, but let's just say I'm not looking forward to this trip.

I am off now to find yummy recipes for dinner and desert this weekend, and maybe even something crafty to do with the kiddos I will possibly be babysitting!