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Nine Days

... That's how long it has been since I last heard his voice. It's starting to hit me... We haven't gone a single day without talking since we met. There isn't anyway for him to make a phone call on the ship, and I don't know how much longer before I will breakdown. He won't be home for alomst three more weeks, and it's getting to me. I get emails form him sometimes, but even being here in Texas isn't helping. I still have nothing that is taking my mind off of him. What do I do?? What's the longest you have ever gone without speaking? I need something...


Hello all my lovely followers! Yes I am still in Texas but I just couldn't resist you guys! So herre I am blogging on my vacation! I am having a great time with family but I can't wait t be back home. I was very inspired when I read this poem on another blog, It's called "Goodbyes" and I think it speaks to all kinds of goodbyes. It really got me because I can even apply it to just being in a military relationship and having to say goodbye so often. Not that it ever gets easier to say the words, but each time you do, you learn. You learn how to deal, and you learn that you have to be independant and not count on him being there. I hope it's an inspiration to many of you as well, and that it speaks to you in it's own way as it has to me.


After a while you learn

the subtle difference between

holding a hand and chaining a soul

and you learn

that love doesn't mean leaning

and company doesn't always mean security.

And you begin to learn

that kisses aren't contracts

and presents aren't promises

and you begin to accept your defeats

with your head up and your eyes ahead

with the grace of woman, not the grief of a child

and you learn

to build all your roads on today

because tomorrow's ground is

too uncertain for plans

and futures have a way of falling down

in mid-flight.

After a while you learn

that even sunshine burns

if you get too much

so you plant your own garden

and decorate your own soul

instead of waiting for someone

to bring you flowers.

And you learn that you really can endure

you really are strong

you really do have worth

and you learn

and you learn

with every goodbye, you learn.