I literally feel like I'm waking up from a dream. This weekend was the dream, and now that he's gone I'm back to reality. We had an amazing weekend together. We celebrated the day we met by going out to dinner and a movie with our favorite couple. We spent time laying in bed watching Netflix, we conserved water several times, we were lazy and ordered out two nights in a row, & then we spent the rest of the time just holding each other & being silly. I even managed to get a couple of pictures right before he left. I drove him to the ship and the whole way I was trying to take my time getting him there. This is the first time I actually went all the way to the ship with him & it was SOOOO hard to let him go. I did not want to turn around and walk back to that car. The whole way home I cried like a baby & then when I got home I could not fall asleep for anything. I'm not sure why this time is so hard on me, I mean since I've moved here he's been gone most of the time. I guess we just had such a great time it didn't feel real walking away from him.
I am very thankful though for all the people who have purchased jewelry from me, really it is helping so much to keep my mind off of things. I'm hoping for many more orders to come just for that purpose. I'm even thinking of having another sale just to try and bring in more orders. I'm doing my best to stay positive during the next couple months by keeping myself busy, and surrounded by people who know what I'm going through. I have some awesome giveaways coming up on my blog, I've had some great stuff donated for them. I also am going to try to start a workout routine to pass even more time. I was lucky this morning I got a phone call it was only about 3 minutes but but he said everything I needed to hear which helped me to get out of bed this morning & actually do something with my day instead of just laying around missing him. Give me a few days and I promise I won't be so down, that;s how my routine goes every time, it just doesn't usually hit me quite this hard.
We had a great time at dinner and a movie with you guys! Hang in there! Can't wait to do it again when he gets back. :D Keep your head up friend. Time will fly, and Joshua and I will be here when you need us...
ReplyDeletesounds like you had an amazing weekend :) I love weekends like that !
ReplyDeleteSo sorry. Even though I feel sadness for you, it makes me feel better to know I'm not the only one who feels how I feel. Good luck staying busy, I'm trying the same, but so far whenever I look at the calendar Im overwhelmed by the number of days to fill. :P
ReplyDeleteI have a feeling in a few days you will be all better. Just try to stay busy and keep your chin up.
ReplyDeleteYou are one of the strongest people on here! I know it's hard right now, but all of us are here for you...me too. :) You can do it girl, I promise. Hugs.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry sweetie! Chin up, you are incredibly strong :)
ReplyDeleteSome days, this mil.spouse life just plain sucks. There's no other way about it. And some say it never gets easier, you just get used to feeling this way and missing him. I think we fall MORE in love with our spouses at random times (if not everyday) and that is why sometimes, this time hurts more than the last. Chin up, pretty lady! You can do it. Every day you're happy is a day for him and yourself!
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