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6/30/10

What a Headache



Today has not been the greatest day for me & I feel like doing what he's doing in the picture. Last night I had a dream about my hubby dying again. I don't want to get into it, but it wasn't pretty at all. I hate dreams like that, they don't come around often but he has had a couple oft hem too. They used to be more frequent when we first got married, but have lessened since we live together. I've looked in various dream books, which seem to say that I have some sort of insecurity with our relationship, and with the "Big D" coming closer and closer who wouldn't. I woke up with a huge headache this morning which nothing seems to be able to ease. So I've been struggling with that while trying to go about my daily laundry and such. Hubby has been asking me to fill out some paperwork for a few days and like the procrastinator that I am I have put it off until today of all days. I pulled it out of the drawer and took a closer look to find that it was an EDF which for those of you who aren't military affiliated is an Emergency Data Form which is all the info they need in case your spouse is killed or injured while they are deployed. So I sat down to fill it out and it just got to me, after the dream last night, so I decided today isn't the day for it. I instead decided to take the "kiddos" downstairs for some air, and to check the mail, and what do ya know... there was a form in the mail from the social security administration saying that my hubby is now eligible for social security if he were ot die this year!!! WTF is up with all of this...all I have to say is this is freaking me out.

6 comments:

  1. I've been having this lately too, where something happens and then everything reminds me of it! Just take a breath, take the kiddies (tehe :)) for a walk and relax. Hubby is not going anywhere and is fine! You will be too! Sending some hugs your way girlie :)

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  2. Aww hun those dreams are the worst, but try not to let them ruin your day! Enjoy the time you guys have together before he is deployed and take in every moment with your hubby. I'm sorry all this crap has you freaked out, but just trust in the lord and everything will be fine! If you ever need to talk or vent you know where to find me! :) Hope you have a better day hun!

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  3. I'm sorry to hear you're having a rough day. *hugs*

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  4. So sucky!!! I would put it off until tomorrow too. Or just do it and get it over with so you don't have to think about it any more. And then make yourself a drink (alcoholic or non!). Hang out with your hubs. He will make you feel better. Hoping tomorrow is MUCH better!! - L

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  5. Ugh, those dreams are the WORST! I've had them too and they are awful to wake up to. At least Mr. Gambizzle is there to hug you when you wake up from dreams like that. The big "D" is a sucky thing to have looming over your head so try to enjoy your time with the hubs before you leave and try not to sweat the fact that he's leaving. Maybe the dreams will stop then? Hopefully!

    I hope you start to feel better soon. Headaches like that are awful. Long distance *hugs*!

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  6. Those dreams suck. Just because you are dreaming it doesn't mean that that's what will happen. At least not for like 80 years. Glad to hear that the rest of your day was better.

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