The hardest part is officially over & my heart has begun to ache. I have no doubt that things will get worse before they get better, but a day is behind me and all I can do is look forward to this all being over. The next two days are not going to be easy. All I have to look at is an empty house. This is the time when Mojo was always my best friend. He would come cuddle with me, and not leave my side as if to say he knew I was sad.
So far I have managed to keep myself from breaking down, by focusing on my plans throughout the next year and reminding myself that in only two days I will be on my way to be with our family. I definitely want to keep myself in a positive mindset throughout, to keep both of us strong, and a part of me is even a little excited to be starting the next step of our journey together. Our marriage is rock solid, and I know we will make it through this like champs. That's not to say there won't be days when I won't be able to drag myself out of bed, but I do know that we can do this together even though we're oceans apart.
I managed to snap a picture as he left. It was nice to capture our last moment together before he walked away. We are both exhausted as it has been a very long, stressful couple of weeks. We've been through a lot even after everything in my last post, but there's nothing in the world that can tear apart a love like this.
I managed to snap a picture as he left. It was nice to capture our last moment together before he walked away. We are both exhausted as it has been a very long, stressful couple of weeks. We've been through a lot even after everything in my last post, but there's nothing in the world that can tear apart a love like this.
I have a TON of stuff planned. My business has really taken off, so that is my main goal right now. I want to focus on getting it where I want it to be. I have officially purchased a website finally and I'm almost done putting it together. It still has quite a bit of work to be done though, so that should keep me busy over the next couple weeks. I am really looking forward to getting started on the first care package which should arrive just in time for Valentines Day, and I Definitely can't wait to start blogging regularly again.
My heart and prayers are with you, hopefully these next couple of days pass quickly for you.
ReplyDeleteThinking about you!! No matter how many times you do this, i'm sure it never gets easier... but how exciting that instead of counting down to deployment, you can count down to when he comes home!
ReplyDelete<3 you! just a phone call away if you ever want to talk about anything
ReplyDeleteFirst of all, your blog is one of the first I ever read that inspired me to start blogging about my "Navy Love" as well. Second of all, this blog makes me sad, but happy at the same time, that you're able to get it out into words how you're feeling right now. Just know that we're all here for you if you ever need anything at all. I adore following your blog and hope you'll start to follow mine as well. xoxoxo.
ReplyDeleteI hope time positively flies for you. You know there are a lot of people out here who will be here for you anytime you need it! <3
ReplyDeleteGod bless you for the things that you do! being a navy wife is hard... I am a fellow one as well and we just made it thru our first deployment and we are about to go thru another one.. the only difference in this deployment from the other one is I will be giving birth to our first child... and he wont be here. Your blog gives us other wives the motivation we need to stay strong and to keep going without falling in a rut.... Stay strong, stay busy and God bless!
ReplyDeleteReading this made me think back to the first few weeks of our deployment. Wishing you all the best! And know there are a TON of milspouses around here that are rooting for you :-)
ReplyDeleteTwo of my friends just left on the Enterprise today. Here's hoping July comes quickly for you!
ReplyDeleteSo very sorry...hoping that time flies for you!
ReplyDeleteI think your husband is on the same ship as my brother. ;)
ReplyDeleteI'm always here love! You are stronger than you know <3
ReplyDeletei'm sorry you have lost your puppy and your husband left so soon after :( my hubs left a little while ago and idk what i'd do if something like that happened also! anyway, you're super cute and i cant wait to read more of your posts.
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