Mili Mondays: Oh I'll be the one to break my heart

It's been a whiiiiiile since my last Mili Mondays post, but hey I have been SUPER duper busy with deployment, business, blah blah blah right... well today's guest blogger has a GREAT post to share with you so I hope you enjoy it, and show her some love! 

 

 

"Oh I'll be the one to break my heart"

 

It sounds like I'm a Debbie Downer huh? I'll explain what I mean more in a second! But first, I would like to thank Mrs. Gambizzle for the opportunity to make myself a better and more wholesome blogger :) And I would also like to apologize to her for waiting on me for so LONG! Well anyway...I'm in the midst of planning my own wedding which is coming up on March 19th! AH! I have been fantastically busy with making arrangements for people to visit, to making invitations, creating my flower arrangements, etc. Planning a wedding, ESPECIALLY a Marine wedding is pretty difficult.

And this leads me to my next point.

The song I took my quote from is called "I feel it all" by Feist. I think many of you have heard of it, but not know it by it's name. It's a beautiful song! Anyway, it kind of describes the craziness of life right now.

My life is:

unorganized

on hold

hectic

running a million miles an hour

stressful

joyful

I bet the last one has you confused huh? Well, the aforementioned things have to do with breaking my own heart. As many of you very well know, you can't set your heart on things with the military.

You can't.

It stinks. But, it's a part of a grander scheme of things that sometimes...well...I simply don't understand. When Mr. Z and I got engaged, we were shouting from rooftops squealing for joy! But After he left and after the feeling of happiness subsided because of the planning, we went from running around doing victory laps to running around like chickens with our heads cut off.

But this mostly has to do with my attitude.

Sometimes I feel like shaking my little fist at the Marine Corps for not giving me the date I want, for not giving Mr. Z and I a honeymoon, and for being a pain in the rear end when it comes to getting leave. BUT! That is breaking my OWN heart. I know this is what Mr. Z chose to do and I know this what I also signed up to do with him.

So thank you Marine Corps for allowing me the privilege of being part of silent ranks.

And thank you Marine Corps for reminding me that something I need to learn in life is patience, sacrifice, and love. 

In case you didn't get it, that was the joyful part.

"wild card inside"

 

You know the cool part though? I get an experience that not very many women get to live through. I get to fall in love with my one and only over and over again. It is a wild card :) You get to pick and choose the cool things about it. Maybe I won't be saying this later...but I am now. 

And that's all we can hope for right? :)

Well, wish me luck with the remainder of wedding planning! :) 

We'll see you on my graduation...err...wedding day! :D

Blessings!!!! ♥ 

to my haters

 Sorry for the foul language, but I've had enough!!

Due to rude comments from "anonymous" bitches, and don't think I don't know who you are because I do! The blog will be going private and you'll have to be a member to comment, I am so tired of all the hatred from snobby people with nothing better to do than leave comments like "You've gained so much weight" & "Why don't you start hooking". Get a life skank.

I've got the blues

I should warn you this post is probably going to be a lot of rambling since there is SO much on my mind, and I haven't written in quite some time. Right now I am wishing I had stayed in Virginia. The days were flying by for a while, but lately they've been going way to slow for my liking. Most of the friends I had here previously have moved away, and the ones who haven't have jobs and are usually busy. I guess you don't really realize how much the military lifestyle changes you til you try to move back to your hometown. That's when you see the difference of being a stay at home wife. It's when you REALLY begin to understand that people who aren't in the military, can't and won't ever know what you're going through. 

bleh... sounds so depressing doesn't it? That's what I have been dealing with, so now I know better than to ever do this again. I'm done, I am definitely staying next time. I miss my girls, the ones who know what it's like, and just what you need to hear when you're having on of "those days". I guess the main thing is I am running out of projects to keep me occupied after I'm done working on jewelry for the day. Once it's time for "Me time" I'm getting lost in the I miss you phase... I have already made a quilt, started a scrap book, sent off four care packages, and of course I make jewelry all day long. I've also done major work on our car, it got new rims, tires, and everything else it needed. It's way to early to start planning homecoming stuff, at least I think it is, so I need ideas ladies! (:

It also doesn't help that he has no communication and I haven't received as much as an email in over a week now. I know, I know you're all thinking the same thing right now, just be strong, it'll be over before you know it. I am being strong, believe me, being here with family is NOT making life easier like it's supposed to... it's making it waaaaay harder. Don't get me wrong I love the in laws, but they are definitely getting to me and we're no where near the 50% mark yet. I want to go back to VA so badly, but I promised hubby I would stay here where he feels I am better off. He's a major worry wort, and he has enough stress as it is between work and college so I don't wanna do that to him. So that's where you come in my bloggy loves (: I need projects! Hook me up with ideas, and lots of them!

A Care Peackage & a Special project (:

I have been INSANELY busy the last couple of days! I'm loving it, the days are flying by as I hoped they would. I just finished up the third care package which will go out sometime this week. I call it "You're My Super Hero" It's full of all my nerdy butt hubby's favorite things, comic book characters, action movies including teenage mutant ninja turtles, Super Man, Bat Man, and some Kung Fu movies. It also has energy drinks, some of his favorite candies like Nerds, and whoppers. He's getting some PJ's with all his favorite super heroes on them, two t-shirts with super man and batman, Gatorade, some pictures of us, and a few other goodies

 

The special project I am working on is a quilt for us to cuddle with when he gets home. It's all red white and blue, and once it's finished it will have some patches from his old uniforms, and other memorabilia (:

Counting the days

I've been counting the days in pictures since the night he left, I've missed a 

few days but getting better! Here's what he's missed so far.

On the pier the night he left...

Hit 150,000 miles driving home to Texas.

The Mini got towed again.

 Our baby sleeping soundly when I finally got to Texas to see her...

 Not so willingly getting settled in back in Texas.

Organizing Jewelry supplies...

The only thing that makes me smile when I wake up...

His first care package

"Be Mine?"

A poem by my hubby his mom put up in my room

Me

A very special gift I received in the mail which made me cry like a baby

the note says:

Betty, 

I just wanted to send you a friend to have while Ric is away, a heart

to hold while yours is gone, and a guardian angel to protect you and the one you love.

Our puppy mama's prego belly, yes we very soon will be the proud new parents

of another Yorkie, we just miss our Mojo so much we have to have another.

Care package number two.

"Home Sweet Home"

insomnia...

Drowning out Deployment blues

something to keep me warm while he's away.

More deployment blues...

Showing off my pride for him. (:

annnnnnd of course more organizing and TONS of jewelry making to make these days fly by...

He's been gone three weeks already, and the time is flying by. I know it

will pass quickly and soon I'll be running into his arms!